when I die, here are the things with which I think I should be cremated. 

first, make sure that all of the remains fit into one biodegradable urn when you're finished, and use my urn and remains to plant a tulip poplar. 

here's what I'll need. 

my purple backpack, or the gray messenger bag that Dr. Fig gave me for graduation. Most likely the latter would be most appropriate. 

paperback used copies of Arcadia by Tom Stoppard, One Flea Spare by Naomi Wallace, Ruined by Lynn Nottage, and The Pillowman by Martin McDonagh

my purple bandanna

a notebook and my Cross pen that my mom gave me. also a couple of ink refills. dammit, now pens are out. leave me a couple of Ticonderoga #2 pencils instead. I could run out of ink in the next world. 

the black pocketknife that's upstairs on my desk. it's Vince's, so you'll have to ask him if I can have it first. 

I guess I don't need a toothbrush, hairbrush, deodorant, or any of that stuff, since I'm leaving my body on earth. wait. but I'm burning my body and all the stuff in the list. what's the point of this list? will I need a hairbrush in the next world? a toothbrush? I enjoy brushing my teeth.  okay, let's assume that when I'm dead I won't need things to maintain my body's physical health, because otherwise this list will be too long. 

a pack of colored pastels would be nice. 

my knitting. whatever I'm currently working on. unless I was making it for someone else. 

the purple blanket that my grandmother crocheted for me. 

a towel. preferably the giant yellow one that I like to take to the beach, or one of the purple ones that I bought for my first single-lady apartment. 

I really don't need anything else, because I think I'm going somewhere to see/do something new. maybe a pack of playing cards in case I need to make a friend. Oh, I definitely need a pack of Tarot cards in case I need to figure some shit out. 

some bobby pins, because I always seem to need those. and a couple of elastic hair bands. 

Maybelline Waterproof Lash Discovery mascara. If they have it in brown, so much the better, but I think Maybelline discontinued it. Bastards. 

the red shawl that my mom knitted for my wedding. the red beaded lace wristband I knitted for myself, but it needs to be repaired first so it fits. both of these are impractical but beautiful. 

Lindt Dark Chocolate with chili. I might not need it for myself, but I bet I can use it to trade. 

I'm not sure what else I'd need, if I were traveling into unknown territory, so I guess that's it. This is, really, the list of stuff I'd need if Jarnsaxa ever shows up in my back yard with a ceramic bottle and a whole lot of copper wire, asking if she can borrow an extension cord and plug into the side of our shed for a bit.  

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8/13 '15 12 Comments
Just so I'm clear, all that gets burned with you, and the ashes of you and all that stuff go in the urn?
Since I don't know what the next world will look like or what form I will take or what I will need, bringing material things with me seems like an idea that will backfire. What I would like to take are my memories, but a memory better than mine. I want to take all the songs from all the shows I know, tunes and words, and all the other songs I like, so that no matter where I am or what happens, I have a way to be happy and something of value to share with whatever and whoever I meet.

I'd also like all the words to the Marat/Sade and a few selected poems like Blake's Tyger, Tyger if I can be greedy about it.
I've said to Vince before, "I love that song so much I want to be buried with it." Other than Cruel To Be Kind, I can't remember which songs made the cut.
<3 Arcadia <3
it took me three readings and one viewing to really "get it." Also, a guy in my Dramatic Lit class showed us how the structure of the play is a fractal.

I'm still looking for my copy of his paper. I know it's in the house somewhere.
OMG, I want to read that paper so much now.
It's driving me crazy that I can't find it. You're the third person for whom I've wanted to show that piece of information in a citeable way.
Did I ever tell you that I met Tom Stoppard? I never can shut up about that story.
What???? Was he nice?
I must have told you this story!
Longer entry to follow.